Monday, December 12, 2005

I'm not a very disciplined person. If you don't know me that well, simply look at the dates on this blog and that should tell you something about me. Now, don't get me wrong, much goes on in between those dates: I've moved to Michigan, I've bought a condo, I've started a great new position at a church, we've begun pre-production on a new album with Watershed, etc. But something always draws me back to this keyboard to hammer out a few more thoughts. Call it "therapy", call it a "need", but I feel it goes a little deeper for me. I look at these littles ramblings as prayers to God. Somewhere through my run-on sentences and fumblings that I meet and talk with Jesus. He hears what I'm saying, and then He hears what I'm saying. I find comfort in that. And that time of being with Jesus draws me back to this keyboard again and again. This one quote has stuck with me the last couple of days. It's got me thinking about this new chapter unfolding her in Rochester and how Vicki and I have been kinda rearranging our lives recently. Frank Laubach in Letters by a Modern Mystic writes, "To be able to look backward and say, 'This, this has been the finest year in my life'- that is glorious! But anticipation! To be able to look ahead and say, 'The present year can and shall be better!'- that is more glorious! I have done nothing but open windows- God has done the rest." Lord, may I do nothing but open windows for you to lead me through. May you find me in the clutter and the noise of my life. Jesus, take the wheel.